November is National Lung Cancer Awareness Month. This is a layout I did of my dad about 5 years ago. For people that have known me and my family, they know the guy in this photo and what a zest for life he had. My dad would sing to his food and just go about life in his merry way.
I have to admit when I see this layout I am a bit sad. As many of you know, my dad was diagnosed with cancer a little over a year ago. Stage IV lung cancer (non smoker). He is stable now, his health is pretty good but...
My dad isn't the same guy as he was in the photo. This is the first time I have talked about it publically. My sister and I are struggling with that. I will be the first to admit, that we as a family don't publically talk about feelings or even health issues a lot of times. My sister and I were just discussing how my dad has changed in this year since he was diagnosed. And today I want to talk about it to see/hear if anyone has any similar experiences.
My dad, while his health is ok, seems very depressed about life and his state of being. Depression is not something that runs in my family so that makes it very challenging for Deb and I to help my dad with. It isn't something we understand. While we see his treatment so far as a gift for him to enjoy life, he doesn't seem to enjoy it.
Tomorrow my dad goes to the doctor again. I will be going to see what we can do for his mental health. I did catch a couple of sparkles of laughter today when my kids were at lunch with my parents and Olivia and Noah were giving out hugs and kisses.